ok so its mother's day and well it has been a very uneventful weekend.
green and phillips were in utah so it was me and the crazy gypsy room mate the past two days.
plenty of time to do some thoughtful thinking but also some stupidly ridiculous thinking.
like for example, i got to wondering what i would be doing in 5 years. where my life would be then. married? a mommy? frik, what state will i be in? haha! or will i still be single and searching?
it hit me that a year ago today marked the beginning of my last relationship.
funny how things have changed so completely.
although, it would be nice to go back a year or two,
back to the easier, seemingly more difficult, days of "high school", friends, work, etc.
now its more like school, classes, homework, tests, frisbee, work out, rent, kitty!, church?, career?, etc.
ohhhh the irony of my life.
i swear i'm gonna write a book!
mom's happily devorced and plans to move the family back to utah now.
2 1/2 of the sisters are pleased.
im mostly neutral...
liz(16) is liking school and has been exposed to the "FUN" in holding hands and cuddling with boys. Now she understands why i came home with a twinkle in my eyes and a skip in my step when i had a boy:) She use to make fun of me for it but now she gets it:)
anna(14) loves school and has found herself a cutie as well and wants to stay in Joesph city. she says she isn't biased, but id beg to differ... i liked Arizona but HATE small towns and joe city is def too small for this "city" girl.
lily(6) too loves school. she had her very first sleepover this past weekend AND lost her very first tooth! she also has like 4 boyfriends to go around. depends on whose in the room really hahaha:) none of this really suprises me because that baby girl is the most beautiful of all four of us, i think.
i've decided that i'm for whatever reason defective. Who knows why but i feel like i must be doing something wrong to be the ONLY one in my family to not have "it going on" when i'm at college in stinking sexburg, ID!
mom(29:)) is actually doing very well. i think for once, she and i are on the same page... we don't agree on everything exactly but, we are both single, trying to decide what to do with our lives, where to live, etc. we talk almost daily and our relationship is, suprisingly, really good.
i am planning on getting a kitten.
i'll post pics when i do.
i love dogs too but kittens are cheaper and easier to take care of.
i have to pay to keep a pet is the only problem.
and i so i plan to make some quick money by donating plasma 4-5 times
and then ill have my money.
i'm excited:)
i need a cuddle buddy.
someone to take care of. to play with. to tease. to sleep with. to love.
its this or a boyfriend and i find that a kitten has more benefits.
easy to find and keep. dont argue or talk back. listens plenty.
basically, i need my best friend.
there was some drama.
my friend went home.
she said, he said crap.
im glad they finally got their issues out
but the drama and intesity is just uncalled for really.
im torn between two important people.
i won't choose sides and therefore i lose them both.
one thinks my loyalty is comprimised.
the other is too far to keep the same relationship we had before.
(he dosn't handle distance well)
i love them both but its not the same.
he was my brother/best friend.
she's my hero/role model/ best friend.
what's a girl to do?
