so it was brought to my attention that people actually read this blog.
on that note, sorry its been a while.
life is good.
it really is.
for now, i guess.
work is great,
i've made some new friends,
making good money,
church is wonderful
and winter has finally passed for good(hopefully).
Lately, I've been thinking about how funny life is.
Last year, at this time i was in such a different state of mind and now well,
I'm different, but I'm glad.
I've grown for the better.
I'm happy on my own...and trust me,
thats not easy to balence.
In fact, this past year has been quite an eye opener for me. I am suprised at my compassion towards our human species, despite the fact I am a waitress...
I have always believed that everything bad happened to me only because God knew I could handle it. I promised him I could. Besides, what dosnt break you makes you stronger, right?
So I guess when I realized that bad things were happening to other people, people i loved, I felt like that was a lower blow. Not that they aren't as strong or anything. it's just that, we had a deal. I'd take the bad and let him or her go.
Now I am reading this and I think I sound like I'm trying to be Jesus or something but thats not what I'm trying to do. My point is, lately I have felt like God has eased up on me and moved on to friends or family and I dont like it. I just want to protect them. Take away their hurt. Not because it's my job but because I know how to handle it. They dont....they can learn but why make them go through it when I already have?
anyways, on a lighter note, I have also been learning alot about the opposite sex.
Their habits affect me.
I only flirt when they start it.
Why can't the ones I want, start it!
I dont know how to start it.( If you have advice, call me.)
On an eternal note, I have also been thinking about my future special someone and the some qualities, traits and habits I never thought to think about but now do.
Things that have never been a question for me in my life, for example, going to church, every week, for the WHOLE time, and being happy about it.
Its crazy to me that people think otherwise.
There's one guy who dosn't do this often enough and I don't know why he does
this but its actually kind of a turn off.
Suprising I know. I never thought that would be so important in making "husband chioces".
Basically, It's a whole new world for this girl.
