so im starting this because well my journal writng is great but i have so much to write that my hand starts hurting while i could type for hours.
first off, i think college life is getting better and better. im warming up to my teachers and classes. got the hang of homework. ive become nocturnal though. its a nice schedule ive got myself in. get home 12ish, eat, shower, homework/facebook/skype and then pass out till the alarm goes.
ive got alot on me right now. alot of emotional baggage. i like to think it goes away but then comes back to smack me in the face. i want so badly to be with my new family. to get to know the new ones and cathch up with the old. but everytime i start longing for them, i remember why it is i chose to go to school so far away.
ive been taking a child development class and have learned alot about how the very second a baby is born, even before that, that everything, EVERYTHING a mother does effects the baby. along with the father, all they teach that baby will help shape that baby to become a strong, healthy person. kinda scary to think about as someone who was once that baby and will one day be a mother. i cant wait. but at the same time, wow.
im not so sure what i wanna do with my life just yet. like i said above, i wanna be a mommy. i love children and i know i am suppose to work with them but what? plus i can't be a mama till i find a daddy and well thats not gonna be happening for another couple years i think. i have things i still need to do without them. i just cant wait to meet them. husband and kids that is. but i definatly am ready to feel needed. ive been raised that way. i like taking care of my loved ones. i cant be selfish. goes aganist my nature.
so back to the careers thing. i was thinking about becoming a baby nurse and get to take care of the new borns in hospitals. maybe even be a mid-wife. but problem is i dont handle blood and needles very well. well i dont handle them at all. so that complicates things. so i started thinking about maybe theropy or maybe sociology. i could be a foster mom or work at an adoption agency. that'd be awesome to me. so im gonna take a intro class and see how it works out. we'll see what happens.
im so excited for next semester! ill have some of my faveorite people living with me. finally! after all the planning and waiting, it'll be here! can't wait for the fun and laughs that'll be had with my girls. movies, parties, sleeping in, music with vibrating walls, laughing, boys, midnight snacks, frisbee, pictures, and so much more.
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